which am i?

is it always like this? the aching, the want, the need? which am i? the lamb or the girl? are they even different? to my horror, our horoscopes don't actually match. i didn't know the birth date, but i knew the month. i thought to myself, "i have a fifty-fifty percent shot at this. i can't have that terrible luck, can i?" i did. so with my heart set on the first horoscope - the false horoscope - i didn't look up the birth date because i feared that somehow, someway, facebook users know how many times and who looks up their facebook page. i avoided it, until a spark of memory suddenly hit me. january. 31st. i looked up the horoscope, and finally the facebook page for confirmation. it was all true. so now back to the question, which am i? the lamb or the girl? reading that i am not compatible makes me feel many unnecessary, unpleasant things. i hate myself for it, and now i'm posting about it in the dead of the night when i should be reading. mental check?