consciously aware

i was never so consciously aware of it before now, but music has a very strong affect on me. just now, i went from Rihanna S.O.S to Goo Goo Dolls Slide to The Script Breakeven. with Rihanna, i sang along with a lot of feeling and with it, all my frustration with myself. i was such a mess, ready to cry, and i was continuously over-thinking. yes, lots of unwritten feelings here. then, pandora asked me to sign in, and they sent me to one of my stations, Iris to be specific. the Goo Goo Dolls, the Script, and now the Wallflowers One Headlight are making me happy again. i suppose they're mellowing me out, but i'm more at peace now. i love music. i may not have this strong passion for it that makes me memorize the artists, the songs, or know more about the culture and where it's going, but i definitely cannot imagine my life without it. i cannot go to school without my iPod, i cannot go anywhere without it actually. everyone always comments on how i always have my iPod on me. they also usually comment on the variety of music on it. this isn't the first time music is my savior, suppressor, or anti-depressant however. a few weeks ago, i'm not sure when, but i was also downtrodden. anthony, you may be familiar with it. i didn't see someone for over a week, and i was so happy to see him when i normally wouldn't. and now, we don't even get a goodbye. okay, i'm going on a tangent again. point is, a few weeks ago, i was downtrodden. and then, i went to Garbage. i didn't literally go to them, it just happened. i think i stumbled on Vitamin String Quartet on facebook and from there got to Garbage. When it Rains and I Think I'm Paranoid really saved me. needless to say, this has probably been a pattern that might have started back in high school when i started carrying around a cd player everywhere. i wonder how it started, but here's my ode to music and thanks to it. [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5qBzuYyK_z0]